Idlewild

"Idlewild is a devastating debut novel about two adults looking back on the dissolution of their teenage friendship. Nell is a lesbian and deeply into her best friend, Fay; Fay is deeply into gay men but doesn’t think becoming one herself is possible. When a pair of sexually ambiguous boys join their quirky Quaker school, Nell and Fay become obsessed with them – and the four entangle into an inevitable implosion. I’m a gay trans guy; Fay is too. Watching both Nell and Fay hurt one another as they refuse to see the truth of that was painful to read. Even through the pain, I felt so protective of and tenderly for these two characters – and also for my younger self."